September 6, 2008 - What year is it?

"Been so long, and it seems like, it was only yesterday, ain't it funny how time slips away.." -Tillotson, Nelson, Presley, Green, etc.

The summer is done, and with it almost another year has passed. In a fit of boredom on a rainy Saturday, I ended up getting back into the site to update it. For about a year, I haven't been able to. I've gotten passwords mixed up and changed, and I really have been trying to invest in creating a better one. This is after offering to pay someone to do it (went through 4 different people, and it's still me doing it). It was April 2007 just a second ago, wasn't it? While we're at it...it was 1998 just a second ago. Earlier this week, I got an e-mail inviting me to my 10 year high school reunion. I have been out of high school for a decade. That is disgusting. What the hell happened? Don't feel bad, website fans. I'm not just forgetting to update sites, I'm forgetting whole decades now.

I already know I'm not going. What for? This area is still full of the people that I went to high school with. None of them really changed too much, and I talk to them about the same as I did then. The few people I kept in contact with in school I meant to keep in touch with. The others found me via the wonderful world of Facebook and MySpace. Some even just popped in to shows and ran into me. I think that's plenty. A reunion? It's only one of three things to people. One- the chance to hook up with old crushes. Just like coming home for Christmas break and running into someone you liked, and then trying to sleep with them with that same tired "I had such a crush on you in high school" line. Only this time there are spouses, mortgages, kids and new issues to wade through. Did you want so badly to sleep with that cheerleader that you'd play through ten years wiht three divorces, six kids and two therapists? Hope she still has the uniform. Two- you're there for competition's sake. You want to show off how much better you made it than people in high school. You've spent ten years training for a chance to make people feel like crap. Your job, your family, even your physical appearance are now just knives to twist into your enemies. That would be funny- having your paychecks, children's report cards, or doctors notes all coming back to you not only with the regular reports, but the people form your past you've beaten out. "Damn, my kids got a C+ and I've got hypertension, but at least I'm ranked 35th. Tommy from homeroom is ranked 55. Stupid fat bitch." Three- the rarity: you're actually trying to reconnect. There are some people you miss from high school and you've regrettably lost touch. This is your chance to meet up with old friends and maybe make some new ones. The only thing that sucks about this is not remembering. Or remembering too much. Either you don't know who anyone is and it's like seeing a bunch of strangers, or the people aren't like you remember them, making it hard to move on. Maybe there's a lot more people who have my reason- reason 4- for not going. I honestly don't care. I have a rough idea how things have gone for most of the people from here. Off to college or wherever you went. Left that to get a job, whether that was your plan or not. Suddenly, the job became a career. You ended up with someone who also had a career. You have some kids who are going to school and now serve as your second chance to make good. They go off to college, do the same crap you did, and they're all made out of ticky tacky and they all look just the same.

Maybe I'm just grumpier than I was 10 years ago. But we should definitely hang out-- I had such a crush on you in high school.

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